I wrote an email to a friend and it turned into an expression of many things that I have learned this summer, so I thought I would share it on my blog:
“I finally feel proud of myself for what I am doing here and it feels pretty good. I am just happy to know that what I am doing is actually making a difference and affecting the people here.
I can't say India is one of my favorite places, but this summer sure has taught me a bunch of life lessons. All the kids on my program are very different and that makes our group as a whole very special. We have business men and engineers, and environmentalists and "energy" believers. Because of the variety of personalities in our group, I have learned to mold my mind to be more open to new people and new ideas.
One boy on my program taught me that the only way to be truly content is to have unconditional love for everything and everyone. At first I thought this was ridiculous because there are people that I just don’t like, and don’t think its worth my time to put up with them - but I have decided to try to find the best in every person so that my life is full of love instead of dislike and I hope that this recognition of kindness can spread to those around me. I think this is an easy decision for me to make here, where I am basically only exposed to the same 20 people everyday, but once I go back to LA this life style will be much harder to practice. I would love you to help me continue to live like this by not gossiping around me or pointing out negative aspects of people to me (not that you do this particularly, but it was definitely part of my lifestyle pre-summer).
I have also come to realize that the ego is a pointless part of humanity and once we rid ourselves of it then good deeds will be done for the sake of good deeds instead of for gaining credit for something. I learned that it really doesn’t matter how or who gets something done, as long as it gets done – this is what brings happiness into the world.”
Writing this email not only helped me express myself and verbalize what is going on in my head, but it also made me realize how much I am truly learning this summer. My experience this summer doesn’t have to do with just one thing or another – providing clean water to poor people or teaching young children about health and sanitation – but instead it has to do with the network of how everything fits together. The people I have met, the new culture I have been introduced to, the work I have done, and spirituality that I have experienced have coalesced to form one hell of a summer for me.