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| Sunrise on my first day of work at Kibbutz Lotan |
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I just returned to Sde Boker from the dreamworld I created for myself
in the past six weeks or so:
traveling to the north and the south, vacationing on the beach of Eilat, hiking
the mountains overlooking the Sinai, volunteering on kibbutzim, exploring my
spirituality in Jerusalem, and shakin my hips to the beat at some music festivals.
In my amazing time as a nomad I come across a great lesson my year so
far has taught me: uncertainty can be the most settling feeling if you let it
be. All my adventures were made somewhat sporadically: not deciding until last
minute to go, knowing it would all work out in the end, and relying on an open
mind and heart to guide me. If you decide something in the moment, then it is truly the thing that will bring you the most happiness. You can't always plan ahead for how you will feel in the future. I learned that not knowing what comes next can be
the best kind of knowing – you control your mind.
Relating this back to the bigger picture of my life, I can be happy to
say that I am excited and enthused by the fact that I have no idea what my life
will entail after Labor Day weekend (my scheduled arrival back to the Bay). I
fantasize about such things as working for ESPN’s Sustainability Team again, or
possibly Urban Adamah in Berkeley, or maybe even moving to St. Louis where a
friend offered to give me free GRE tutoring. And then my mind wanders back to
Israel – maybe I’ll come back and get my hands dirty on a kibbutz for a few months or actually
finish this degree I started. I am a lucky girl to have such a wonderful list
of opportunity. Only time will tell what ends up on my path…
Coming home to Sde Boker this week was like taking a huge inhale and
letting it all out (open-mouth exhale, yogis). Such a deep breath. I feel so
happy to have such a supportive community and tranquil natural environment to
let my mind and heart rest in. I lay my head down on this soft pillow.
Summer, I welcome you with open arms. I am ready for the last few
chapters of this journey.
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| Hiking in Sde Bo |
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| (Tree of Life) עץ החיים |
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| My eco-dome home at Lotan |
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| Bottle feeding baby goats at Lotan |
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| Kibbutz Neot Smadar |
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| Jacob's Ladder Music Festival |
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| Sunrise at the Kotel |
